他先在一个图书馆帮忙打打杂,Teddy在那里啥也不干天天看children’s book, 那些小时候他看过的童话故事,他感到“It was good to read those books again; all the feelings came back to me.”(不管Teddy经历多少青春的创痛,在这里他找回了儿时那份纯真… )
不过后来他开始把书拿回家看也不登记,事情就又搞砸了,还有一次他在图书馆后花园的长凳上刻字,他想刻”April”,可是还没刻完有其他图书管理员过来… 这些事情都汇报到他的probation officer那去了… officer气坏了让他把书还回去并且斥责他竟然在人家长凳上刻“Ape”= = Teddy之前啥都没争辩,这回他实在忍不了说我要刻”April”好嘛!(唉,Teddy的April~~~~~~)
后来Teddy又被分到一个养老院做社工,那里是一些需要照顾的患老年痴呆症的老人,可是Teddy觉得“They're okay, They're just like big children”… (图书馆里Teddy回到了童年,而在这里面对这些老人,Teddy想到自己老的时候面对死亡…), 他对小伙伴说“I hope I die before I ever come to a place like this.” 小伙伴说他一定会的应为他抽烟…他并不像其他人那样很不耐烦的对待那些老人,他甚至从这些老人的皱纹和微笑中看到了美好……
绘画课之后心情不好的Teddy又去Barry家party喝酒~ 其实Teddy从来不能忘怀April,在party上男孩们又提起April,Barry承认了他已经f**k了她…… 终于知道这些让Teddy既愤怒又伤心,下边一段Teddy的内心独白非常喜欢:
“That was the end of it. I couldn’t bring up April again. Barry had done it with her, the girl I loved, and it had meant nothing to him; Tanya would die and no one would care; and there were billions of bodies alive on earth and they would all be buried and ground into dirt; and Picasso was a master at age sixteen and I was a perfect shit.”