今天在给男朋友分享音乐 比如“我最喜欢的后摇”“我最喜欢的电音”“我最喜欢的古筝曲” 突然想起来我最喜欢的英文歌应该就是Calendar girl了 虽然网易云都没有版权
在此之前我从没跟任何人提起过这部电影对我的重要意义 我只是跟几个人推荐过这部片子 告诉他们这是我最喜欢的电影 实际上 在我抑郁症最严重的时候 我躲在房间里看了一遍又一遍 一遍又一遍 Calendar girl这首歌无数次单曲循环
对 在此之前我甚至不曾告诉他人我有过很严重的抑郁症 只是少数几个人知道
我真的做过无数抗争 我也无数次厌恶这个世界 在黑夜里无数次哭 无数次失眠看到凌晨四点半街边的路灯暗下去
时至今日我觉得我赢了 虽然我仍旧会情绪敏感 很容易哭 但至少我在认真的爱着这个世界 我歌颂它的美好 感恩我的生活 感恩我的家庭美满富足 感恩一切的一切
所以
When you get those rare moments of clarity,
Those flashes when the universe makes sense,
you tried desperately to hold on to them.
They are the life boats for the darker times when the vastness of all,
the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive.
So the question becomes, or should be all along.
What would you do if you know you only have one day or one week, or one month to live?
What life boat would you grab onto?
What secret would you tell?
What person would you declare your love to?
What wish would you fulfill?
What exotic locate would you fly to for a coffee?
What book would you write?
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