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Rachel Row: Why do you want to die?

Jonathan: I don't want to die, I just don't want to be alive.

Jonathan: See, Dr Figure was a no-medication type of guy and all the hard core suicidals in his group - now including myself - had agreed not to kill or harm themselves before January 1st. I mean, can you imagine someone dead, hanging from the light fixture in their room, thinking, If my doctor finds out about this, I'm FUCKED."

Dr. Figure: What would you do if you were allowed home for the afternoon?

Jonathan: [inhales] Get a decent cup of coffee then I'd chop me head off with a chainsaw.

Dr. Figure: Okay. Uh - uh, just one thing. I wanted to propose something. It's like a pledge between doctor and patient. We nominate a day, like three weeks from now - like New Year's Day - and you mustn't harm yourself until that day. You have to stick to it. What do you think about that?

Jonathan: Yeah, I think it's a fuckin' ridiculous idea.

Dr. Figure: It's been known to work.

Jonathan: It won't work.

Dr. Figure: Might. Why don't you think about it?

Jonathan: Okay, hang on.

[sarcastically]

Jonathan: Um, I've thought about it. Fuck, you made a medical breakthrough. Well done, Doc.

Dr. Figure: Okay, well, we'll talk about it more after the session.

Jonathan: Well, you've given me the will to live and I want to thank you for that.

Dr. Figure: Then, after that, I will show you the benefits of being more sparing with your sarcasm. Okay? See ya.

Jonathan: Fuck you.

[leaves]

Jonathan: I know more about the business of suicide in my baby finger, than you do in all your years of training and Freud reading. I gurran-fuckin'-tee ya that.

[after Toby has killed himself]

Jonathan: You can never really know what was going through a person's mind at that exact moment. If they survive, they'll never tell you. If they succeed, all you can do is spend the rest of your life feeling guilty. You're only concern can be for the people they leave behind. They're the ones to look out for.

Rachel Row: It's beautiful here.

Jonathan: Can't take all this on your own.

Rachel Row: So you are all good now? Too many near death experiences you are beginning to think twice.

Jonathan: You wanna know the truth? If it's a matter of life and death between people like you and me, then I want to outlive you. And I want to see what happens to you. 'Cause I like ya.

Rachel Row: I don't know.

Jonathan: What if we are still together in a year?

Rachel Row: Would we be?

Jonathan: I can see it happening.

Rachel Row: I don't know. So do you think you love me?

Jonathan: I know I love you.