I want to give you a story, you know what is one of these stories.I had this woman patient. she was suffering from depression. She was a mother of twelve. One day her husband who kept bringing her over and s her and knocked at the doors says: “Can I have a word with you without my wife?”I said,”yes, sure”. As a very respectable man, a teacher in a religious school, says after taking vacation from teaching. I said “why do you take vacation from teaching?” He said”Because I have this intention of falling in love with those boys. I have been homosexual since I was sixteen or seventeen. I know I have homosexual needs and desires.” and I said “Did you act on it?” he said”Never. But my problem is that I fall in love intensively with one of those boys. And I think I am the cause of my wife' depression. ” I said”why is that?” He said”She knows about it. The fact is she also knows I will never love her as much as any of those boys. Never.” And I called the wife. she said”He is a saint. He has been fighting his desires for so many years. He made me twelve kids. He was not even the gift of loving me the way he could love others. but he is been doing his best.” This is a man at that time about fifty-six years old. Think about it: Forty years of struggle. Never act on it even once. I learned a lot of from this case. For me this is the idea, a gay religious person should lead his life, struggle his desire
