If I was writing you a letter, it would probably sound something like an apology.
如果我写信给你,那么很可能是一封道歉信。
I know everyone deserves a mama who'd want a nice baby such as yourself, who was also a good wife, a fine member of society. And I can't rightly say that I'm any of that, and I'm not sure the world is such a fine place to be bringing you.
Many of the people I've met are not worth meeting. Many of the things that happen are not worth living through.
我遇到的许多人,根本不值得一见。我遭遇的许多事情,根本不应该发生。
And you shouldn't take it personal, baby, if I don't seem like all the other mamas-to-be, jumping all over themselves with joy. I frankly don't know what I got to give you, baby.
What if I leave Earl and don't win that contest next week and don't have no money? What the hell am I going to do with you then?
如果我离开你爸爸,却没办法挣到钱,那会怎样?那个时候,我该拿你怎么办?
You sure is getting fat, baby. All my life, baby, the only thing I ever want to do is run away. What kind of mama is that?
你正在我的肚子里越长越大,而我人生中唯一想做的一件事就是离开这里。我怎么是这样的妈妈啊?
I wish I could feel other things, baby. Like excitement that you're with me now or faith that I'll be a good mama, even if my life ain't such a good place and the world as I see it ain't so pretty like they'd have you believe in this book.