i have been cried talking about how Peter W. screwed me in bed and you kissed me saying i am glad you did not kill yourself. when I saw Clem doing the same thing to Joel and when I am writing this down right now I am crying again. I was happy.
I was, just, happy.
At that moment, I was glad that what I had suffered; I stupidly thought it was all worthy cuz I had met you. You are everything makes sense to me. how could I get over you. how how how.
dont know if you remember i posted on my skype saying that that was the HAPPIEST day in my life. The fucking happiest day in my whole fucking life. I kinda smiled all day long. it was such a pity that we did not really record what we had done. It was such a pity that I did not buy anything when we went to the Japanese gift store. I regret too much that I did not get that small stuffed animal. it was so cute and you kept saying: get me get me look at me i need your love! I did not want to waste your money you know.
i do not know if there is such an organization, whether I would go to erase you. I kinda cherish everything we did. they were so beautiful. you were wonderful. there is a song "i dont want to forget about you", which I do like. but it is painful. I still remember how I was broken. I even swore again today that I am gonna get you and hurt you. hehe. i think I hate you more than I loved you.
all the people around me are freaking tired of me talking about you, I suppose. I am just writing in my crap English so that I do not bother anyone.
if I erase you from my head, will I fall in love with you again? i guess not, without you seducing me.
btw, I really like Mary in this movie. "I loved you from the first sight. You did not come on me at all. I liked that."
we are, making the same mistake, over, and over again.
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