"You came into my dream last night with that smile that always held me like a lover, rocked me like a child. All l remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. l woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as l could.
l'm writing to tell you that l'm on a journey toward that peace.
And to tell you l'm sorry about so many things.
l'm sorry l didn 't take better care of you so you never spent a minute being cold or scared or sick.
I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words to teII you what I was feeIing.
I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed it now.
I'm sorry I ever fought with you.
I'm sorry I didn't apoIogize more.
I was too proud.
I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compIiments on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair.
I'm sorry I didn't hoId on to you with so much strength that even God couIdn't puII you away. ''
Any girI wouId want to be Ioved Iike that. To be somebody's ''true north''.
我有流泪,有难过,有梦到你,只有和你在一起,我才感觉到自己是谁谁的"true north", 感觉到 "l'm on a journey toward that peace".
是的,我能感觉到,当你从背后亲吻着我的头发,你的轻叹声告诉我;当你为我拉上外套拉链,你的手指轻柔的告诉我;当你紧紧的囊我入怀,你的泪水告诉我.
假如,假如我能再年轻一点,假如我和他还没有走过这么长的风雨,没有到达谈婚论嫁的地步,相信我会的,我会毫不犹豫的选择你.
选择,小鱼,I am so scared,我害怕选择,yes or no所决定的是一辈子的生活轨迹,决定的是这一生和他擦肩而过或者是与你失之交臂.
我很怯弱,我很贪心,得到这的时候害怕失去那,所以我害怕未知的世界. 就算我恨透了现状恨透了猜忌,恨透忠诚和信任的失去.我也不敢尝试如此肯定的被爱被呵护.
或许每段爱情都一样,我总是这么想,不是有这样的不如意,就是那样的.一开始美好,终究会变质,始乱终弃同床异梦.所以才会有人感叹,人生若只如初见,何事西风悲画扇. 刚和他在一起的时候,他也一样的温柔,一样会用手指轻抚我的脸,也会用唇温柔的亲吻我的手指,注视我的目光也是一样的充满了迷恋.
小鱼,时间能把爱情冲淡,也可以把感情变浓,就像我和他,无论他做了什么,他是我在这个世界上最亲的人,这种亲情甚至超过了我的父母.有时决得他就像我的孩子,无论做错了什么,我都会原谅.
小鱼,我知道你很难过,我也一样.我不能和你再联系,因为我希望你忘记我. 或许再过半年或者一年,等时间把一切都冲淡了,你或许还愿意,我们还能成为朋友.
再或者期盼来世,我们能在对的时间里相遇.
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