Dearest Onegin,
I write to you. It’s all I can do. And now I know it’s in your power to punish my presuming heart. Yet if you have one drop of pity, you’ll not abandon me to my unhappy fate. I am in love with you and I must tell you this or my heart, my heart which belongs to you will surely break. I would have never revealed my shame to you, if just once a week I might see you, exchange a word or two, and then think day and night of one thing alone till our next meeting. But you are unsocial they say that the country bore you. Is it true? Does the country bore you? Sometimes I wonder that you ever visited us. Why? I never know you or know this agony and fever. I know that all my life’s been leading me to this union with you. I recognize you at first sight and knew with certainty and say to myself: “it’s him, he’s come.” Help me. Resolve my doubts. Perhaps this is all nonsense, emptiness, a delusion, and quite another fate await me. Imagine it. I’m here alone, half out of my mind. I dread to read this over. My secret longing. I know that I can trust your honor, though I feel faint from shame and fear.
Tatyana
最亲爱的叶甫盖尼:
我在给你写信---还能怎样呢？我知道你完全可以惩罚我的冒昧，但是，如果你还有点滴的怜悯，你不会把我丢给无情的命运。我爱上你了，我必须让你知道，还有我那颗属于你的心，必定会崩溃。我不想让你看出我有多难为情，哪怕我一个星期只能见你一次，和你说上一两句话，我就会日日夜夜惦记着，直至再一次见面。然而，据说你不爱与人交往，乡村使你感到无趣，是真的吗？乡村真的让你个感到很无趣？有时候，我甚至希望你从未拜访过我们。为什么？这样我就不会认识你，就不会感觉到煎熬和痛苦了。我知道，我命中注定要遇见你，我第一眼就认出了你，非常确定你是谁。我对自己说：“是他，他来了。”帮助我，解除我的疑虑，也许这一切不过是虚无，是无知心灵的梦而已！命运另有它的安排，请想想吧！我在这里很孤单，浑浑噩噩。这封信我不敢再读一次，我心底的渴望。我相信你为人正直，我快窒息于羞怯与恐惧之中了。
塔齐娅娜
然而，塔齐娅娜得到的却是奥涅金无情冷漠的回答：表白-亲吻-结婚-家庭-义务-厌倦-通奸——这就是你想要的未来吗？人们常说，爱情，可以增强理性，但减弱感知，我天生不适合爱情和婚姻。
天生不适合婚姻和爱情？还是对无聊的上层阶级婚姻家庭生活的恐惧？生活不能没有激情，正如奥涅金自己所说：“我从来都没有打算拯救自己。”就让灵魂继续沉沦下去吧，即使真爱就在面前！
让时间来证明这一切吧！！一个人是快活，两个人才是生活。可是，没有灵魂的快活，一切都只是荒废时日。
那个端庄文雅的人儿呀！如晨曦迷雾，袅袅如烟，惊鸿一瞥，就勾起了那颗沉寂已久的心。漠然冷淡的心变得汹涌澎湃，火焰烧绕，无日无夜，无休无止......
按耐不住的心，开始追求幸福的真谛......
Tatyana,
I can foresee the bitter scorn blazing at me from your proud eyes, when you have read my secret sorrow. When we first met, through chance, I saw tenderness, like a shooting star, but did not dare to put my faith to it. Then Lensky fell, which parted us still further. Then I tore my heart away from everything it loved, rootless, estranged from all I thought that liberty and peace would serve, instead of happiness. My god! How wrong I was! How I’ve been punished. No. Day by day to be with you, follow you everywhere, alive to every smile, each movement of your eyes, dwell upon your soul’s perfection, listen to your voice, grow faint with yearning. That is bliss. And I’m cut off from it. My time is short and each day and hour is precious. Yet I just drag myself around in boredom. Every day a desert ,unless, when I wake up, I know the day will bring a glimpse of you. If you but knew the flames that burn in me, which I attempt to beat down with my reason. But let it be. I cannot struggle against my feelings anymore. I am entirely in your will.
Onegin
Dearst Tatyana,
我能预见你尊贵的眼睛流露出强烈的鄙视之情，但我还是要说出内心的痛楚。我们初次见面，不经意间，我看见彗星般的柔情，我却不敢相信它，连斯基的离去更拉远了我们的距离，从此我割舍心爱的一切，无牵无挂，选择自由与安逸的生活，而不是快乐。上帝啊，我犯了多大的错误！现在受到何等的惩罚，不是！天天和你在一起，追随你的身影，振奋于你的每个微笑与眼神，回想你的尽善尽美，倾听你的声音，在思恋中憔悴，那是幸福！但我却亲手砍断了这种幸福。人生短暂，每时每刻都弥足珍贵，我却还违心地消遣无聊，时日就这么荒废了，除了......某天醒来我知道，今天我可以看你一眼，但愿你能了解，我内心的火焰，我曾想用理性压灭它，但还是让它燃烧吧！我再也不能抗拒自己的情感了，我已经完全臣服于你了！
Onegin
我会变成Onegin吗？
蓝光
