你 第一季

耐着性子跳看完一季无厘头的电视剧。一个嚷闹了10集要成为作家，却每日浑浑度日的女生，一个心灵扭曲，聪明变态的男生；还有一群有着各种社会心理疾病的路人... 剧情不真实、无厘头、没逻辑，看完后唯一的冲击是在社交网络上过渡曝光自己有多么危险之外，最出彩的部分大概是 Beck 在去世之前撰文的这段自述:

How the hell did you end up here? You used to wrap yourself in fairy tales like a blanket. But it was the cold you loved. Sharp shivers as you uncovered the corpses of Bluebeard’s wives. Sweeter goose bumps as Prince Charming slid one glass slipper over you little toes, a perfect fit. But by the schoolyard, real princesses floated by you on fall winds, you saw the gulf between you and the rich girls, and vowed to stop believing in fairy tales. But the stories were in you, deep as poison. If Prince Charming was real, if he could save you… You needed to be saved from the unfairness of everything… When would he come? The answer was a cruel shrug in a hundred fleeting moments. The sneer on Stevie Smith’s face when he called you a fat cow. Uncle Jeff’s hand squeezing your ass in the Thanksgiving kitchen, the accusation in your father’s eyes when you told your father what happened. From every boy masquerading as a man that you let into your body, your heart, you learned you didn’t have whatever magic turns a beast into a prince. You surrounded yourself with the girls you’d always resented, hoping to share their power, and you hated yourself, and that diminished you even more. And then, right when you thought you might just disappear, he saw you. And you knew, somewhere deep, it was too good to be true. But you let yourself be swept, because he was the first strong enough to lift you. Now, in his castle, you understand Prince Charming and Bluebeard are the same man. And you don’t get a happy end unless you love both of him. Didn’t you want this? To be loved? Didn’t you want him to crown you? Didn’t you ask for it? Din’t you ask for it? Didn’t you ask for it? So say you can live like this. Say you love him. Say thank you. Say anything but the truth. What if you can’t love him back?

每个小女孩都曾幻想自己是公主，然后随着年龄的增长被现实严酷拍打；有些人也许很早就拍清醒了，有些人，可能一直到30、40岁还在做着粉红梦，活得越来越痛苦。

现实是，女孩，现实里没有那么多白马王子，甚至根本没有白马王子，你终究是要依靠自己的呀。 Stop dreaming. Face the reality.

中学时读一位名人的散文里写 “不努力地活，不一定会比努力更容易。” 与还在期待白马王子拯救你的人，共勉。