For the past eight months waking up has actually hurt.The cold realization that I'm still here slowly sets in.I was never teribly fond of waking up...... Only fools possibly escape the simple truth. That now isn't simple now.It's a cold reminder.One dat later than yesterday.One year later than last year.And that sooner or later it will come.
过去的八个月里，醒来是件痛苦的事。“我仍旧在这儿”的冰冷现实慢慢沁入。我从来不怎么喜欢醒来……只有傻瓜会逃避一个简单的事实：现在不仅仅是现在。那是冰冷的提示。年复一年，日复一日。那一刻，迟早会到来。
It takes time in the morning for me to become George.The time to adjust to what is expected of George and how he is to behave....I know fully what part I'm supposed to play....Just get through the goddamn day.
每天早晨都要花些时间去做回那个我，调整到预期的那个我和那种预想的言行。……我完全知道自己要扮演什么角色……只要熬过这该死的一天。
A bit melodramatic,I guess.
可能有点戏剧化。
-Death is the future?.....It's not depressing,It's not depressing.It's true.It may not be your immediate future,but It's what we are share.Death is the future.
未来是死亡？……没，没沉重，事实这就是未来。当然不一定是离你很近的未来，但我们终分享一样的结果。死亡就是未来。
-You are right,I guess.
我想你说得对。
-If one not enjoying one's present,there isn't a great deal to suggest that the future should be any better.
如果人不能享受现在，难以想象他的未来会比现在更好。
-Yeah,I've thought that before.But the thing is you just never know.Look at tonight.
是的，我以前也这么想。但你永远不会知道。像今晚。
Actually...I feel really alone most of the time.
事实上，我很多时候感到孤独。
-You do?
是吗?
-yeah,I've always felt this way.I mean we're born alone,we die alone.And while we are here,we are absolutely completely sealed in own bodies.Rearly weird.kinda freaks me out to think about it.We can only experience the outside world through,our own slanted perception of it.Who knows what you're really like?I just see what I think you‘re like.
是。我一直有这种感觉。生的时候一个人，死也一个人。尽管我们在这儿，事实上是被完全封闭在自己的躯壳里。真的好怪。想想就让我发狂。我们只能通过主观去体验外部世界。谁知道真实的你？我看到的只是我认为的你。
-I'm exactly what I appear to be.If you look closely.You know the only thing that has made the whole thing worthwhile....has been those....few times that I've been able to really，truely connect with another human being.
我完全是那个我所想呈现的我。如果你挨近看。要知道只有一样东西能给予人生以价值，就是为数不多的时候，能够真正和另一个人心灵相惜.
Mr.Huxley says，Experience is not what happens to a man.It is what a man does with what happens to him.
经历不是一个人会发生什么，而是如何对待发生的什么。
Pathetic!......Why are you here?Why did you get to the office and ask secretary for my address?.......Me?What's to be worried about?I'm fine. ........I‘m fine.
悲哀！……你为什么在这？下课你为什么去我办公室问我住址？……我？没什么可担心的。我没事。我没事。
A few times in my life,I've had moments of absolute clarity, When for a few brief seconds… …the silence drowns out the noise… …and I can feel……rather than think.And things seem to sharp...And the world seem so fresh...as though it had all just come into existence.在我生活中，我很少感觉如此清澈， 就在短暂的几秒里，沉静驱走了杂音，我能感觉得到，而不是去想。事情如此鲜明……世界如此新颖……一切都实实在在。
I can never make this moments last,I cling to them,..but like everything they fade.I've lived my live on these moments.They pull me back to the present,..and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be.
我不能使这一刻永恒，我试图紧握……但他们像万物般流逝。这一刻，我还活着。他们把我拉回了现实，现在意识到，一切都恰如注定。
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